{"id":1396,"date":"2013-05-08T15:23:39","date_gmt":"2013-05-08T21:23:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/blog.mops.org\/2013\/05\/08\/my-hospital-confession\/"},"modified":"2013-05-08T15:23:39","modified_gmt":"2013-05-08T21:23:39","slug":"my-hospital-confession","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/my-hospital-confession\/","title":{"rendered":"My Hospital Confession"},"content":{"rendered":"

Hello, Dearest<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n

I have a confession: I didn\u2019t feel that \u201cinstant love\u201d that moms talk about when they first see their child. Please understand, I love<\/em> my child. I loved her before I saw her, before I held her. But I just didn\u2019t feel that instant bond I expected after delivery. I tried to act the part in front of family and friends, but when complications kept me in the hospital for a week, I couldn\u2019t keep it up. I was sick and in pain, so when my husband asked me if I wanted to hold Reagan, I admitted that I didn\u2019t. And then I cried.<\/em><\/p>\n

After two losses and a rough pregnancy, my precious baby had arrived safely. This was the child I had prayed for, cried for. She was here and she was beautiful. What\u2019s wrong with me?<\/em><\/p>\n

Since coming home from the hospital, things have improved and I love holding her (except when she is super fussy, then she\u2019s all Daddy\u2019s!) and cuddling her. I cried the first day I went back to work, and I couldn\u2019t get home fast enough at the end of the day to see her. But I\u2019m still not the mom I expected to be. I don\u2019t read her enough storybooks, I forget to pray for her spouse every night (at this point, I forget to pray at all more nights than I care to admit), and when I hear her start to fuss in the night I whisper, \u201cplease go back to sleep!\u201d and wait a minute or two before crawling out of bed. My list of ways I believe I\u2019m not measuring up is long.<\/p>\n

But today, my challenge (for you and me) is to find three things that we do well<\/em> as mothers.<\/strong><\/p>\n

I\u2019ll start. I am patient with Reagan; even when inside I\u2019m ready to run away and join the circus (how different can it really be from my house!?!), outwardly I am calm with her. I also talk and sing to Reagan \u2026 a lot. I read somewhere that it will help her learn and grow and, I\u2019ll be honest, I love to talk so it fits with my strengths! And for a third thing I do well, I know (or at least am learning!) my limits. I share Reagan\u2019s care with Daddy because I know that I\u2019m a better mom when I let someone else help me.<\/p>\n

Now it\u2019s your turn \u2026 What three things do YOU do well as a mom?<\/strong><\/p>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Hello, Dearest I have a confession: I didn\u2019t feel that \u201cinstant love\u201d that moms talk about when they first see their child. Please understand, I love my child. I loved her before I saw her, before I held her. But I just didn\u2019t feel that instant bond I expected after delivery. I tried to act […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":7,"featured_media":12108,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_seopress_titles_title":"","_seopress_titles_desc":"","_seopress_robots_index":"","_seopress_robots_follow":"","_seopress_robots_imageindex":"","_seopress_robots_snippet":"","_seopress_robots_primary_cat":"0","_seopress_robots_breadcrumbs":"","_seopress_robots_freeze_modified_date":"","_seopress_robots_custom_modified_date":"","_seopress_robots_canonical":"","_seopress_social_fb_title":"","_seopress_social_fb_desc":"","_seopress_social_fb_img":"","_seopress_social_fb_img_attachment_id":0,"_seopress_social_fb_img_width":0,"_seopress_social_fb_img_height":0,"_seopress_social_twitter_title":"","_seopress_social_twitter_desc":"","_seopress_social_twitter_img":"","_seopress_social_twitter_img_attachment_id":0,"_seopress_social_twitter_img_width":0,"_seopress_social_twitter_img_height":0,"_seopress_redirections_value":"","_seopress_redirections_enabled":"","_seopress_redirections_enabled_regex":"","_seopress_redirections_logged_status":"","_seopress_redirections_param":"","_seopress_redirections_type":0,"_seopress_analysis_target_kw":"","_seopress_news_disabled":"","_seopress_video_disabled":"","_seopress_video":[],"_seopress_pro_schemas_manual":[],"_seopress_pro_rich_snippets_disable_all":"","_seopress_pro_rich_snippets_disable":[],"_seopress_pro_schemas":[],"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[102,117],"tags":[121,101,122],"class_list":["post-1396","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-relationships","category-wellness","tag-new-baby","tag-parenting","tag-rachel"],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1396","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/7"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=1396"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1396\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=1396"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=1396"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.themom.co\/fr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=1396"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}